No matters how much i comfort myself,no matter, how much i tell myself the words of my friends " you are a jerk , nothing else etc " it didnt stop me from crying when i thought of you, when i thought of the words you said , when i thought of the hug and kisses you gaven me. those defeated the will of me not cry over you. because, while typing this, i'm crying.
Boring to the max day, mummie, do you know how much pain i am going through? how much fear i have i my heart? stop asking me to study will you? fail, fail, i know you had good intentions for me in your heart, but still. haish, sorry alright? boring day, tuitioned at 9.30 , my mum bluff me bodoh, 8.48 woke me up tell me tuition at 9, i rush rush rush, ended up at 9 , say, actually, is 9.30 :@ roar! hmm, was using comp like what i usually do on a normal weekend, didnt let exams stress me, i'm gonnaa keep myself in a happy mood, hence , not letting exam stress me out. haha! hmm, dad was rather naggy, forget it, i shall just take those words as music. dinner was great, ate and use comp. going to bed soon.
Boy, i love you.
586426 ; how much i miss you, you wont ever know. because ,i will never let you know , how much i miss you , how much i cry over the loss of you, how much i cry just thinking of you, i will never let you know how much you hurt me, because i love you. did you patch back with me for the sake of revenge , because i was the one who break first? did you, or are you just pitying me? or do you really , really, love me, i dont know . i didnt know, and i would never know . tomorrow's your exam, good luck. do you know how much i wanted to text you ? yet didnt do it? Maybe , forgetting me is good for you, if forgetting me is that good for you, tell me, drop me a hint, i shall then vanish from the surface of earth and never cross path with you ever again. I love you. i had so much to tell you, right now, i only want to hug you and tell you i love you.

Till the next time , Xinyun