Hey hey! Time to confess .
I have a confession .
- I cheated the feeling of another guy . ( or should i say , i did not ? What i did was just Played his feelings . depending on how you want to define the word play and cheat . Play, because he didnt have "love" towards me too , cheat maybe he did , but i cant feel it , just play along ? i dont know uh . )
I cannot say he's stupid or whatever . I did told him "i love you" . yet, the feeling . wasn't there. especially when , he started to bug me . damn . I'm evil aren't i ? But , anyway , he was the one who suggested the break up and now blaming me . fuck . Whatever. Even , if he didn't suggest a break up , i would have suggested it to him , for that reason . He is so much alike the guy whom i couldn't forget, yes , i may get into relationship often , but i know too well . It's not love . It's just laughter, fun , joy . The feeling of being love . No matters how bad the guy is , the feeling of being love just seems to bring me joy . But crap , it isn't love . Because, my heart is still with .. someone . haha . Just to reconfirm , i am not like people dog, i don't follow their advice, so don't accuse me of doing what a dog do . Hate me for all you like . :D You don't love me too . You love what i don't have. fucker .
Enough of my crappy love life .
Hmm! It's E learning today! and i'm still at home , not doing the work , and and! i woke up at like! damn late, only to find out that my house has only me and my grandmother, i actually thought of going down to bubble tea shop de , but well! yesterday, i was so god damn it tired that i don't have that kind of energy to even on computer, much less say , wake up damn early this morning ? haha! I'ma going out later . For work , of course . no work , no money . So! i must work :D haha! going out work soon . ciaos! update again tonight i guess. ( if i have that spare energy! )
------ --- --- --- : I miss you , I love you , i really do .
Till the next time , Xinyun