I dont know what's there for me to work hard and study anymore . The school is basically preparing me for Ite , which i dont want to go . _l_ It's like , Wth . So many people are telling me , Ns students will just leave the school after sec 4N and go ite , we cannot go O level de . Smlj ? It was the principle who said we still can go . now teachers are telling me , it's not possible . Smlj ? Fucked up . It's like i might as well just quit school and study private sua . What's the point of wasting my god damn time in a fucked up school ? Other people who retained can go back to normal class and yet , i cant . Like that nvm , say until so nice , what, more benefit , say what smaller class easier for teacher to teach us 1 to 1 ; teachers can spot our problems faster . SMLJ LA! Special class , which prepare us for ite then correct la . Lanjiao . Yes, my class people are indeed friendly , great . But what did i do to deserve this ? Cause i retain ? Life is just so unfair . Fuck it . And how great, i was so fucked up and i end up quarreling with my best friend . I dont know what to do anymore . Simply fuck up . been crying for the past hour , haven even got started on my chinese compo yet . And now , guess what . a headache . of all time . So i shall just go to sleep now i guess . There's nothing much to do anyway .
Best day , wanted to eat tang yuan , mum came in told me , there's not enough for me . Wanted to eat dinner , mum told me , no more dinner . Great right ?

Till the next time , Xinyun